Well...

So sorry for the LONG wait! High school is literally crazy. It is my most favorite and least favorite thing in the history of "things". But that's life.

 

I've finally found a free moment so I am going to write! Not much has happened. I think since I've posted, I've been to the back doctor. My curves (from bottom to top) are 15,30, and 35. Not bad but not good. It's okay though. He said no talk of surgery- especially for someone like me who hides it so well. I really have not had any problems with back or brace pain ever.

 

I have only ever had one brace- Pablo. Pablo is literally my constant companion. He's with me 24/7. We have what you'd call a love hate relationship. :) Scoliosis doesn't really bother me anymore. At school, I’m very open. When I bring candy to some of my friends and people ask where I got it, I tell them I got it from the hospital (my mom works in the gift shop so we always go get candy after appointments). Everyone knows. And guess how many people care? None. Guess how many people can’t look at me the same again because I wear something plastic around me? NONE. When we go to the hospital and we have to carry my brace in so I can put it back on after my appointment, I carry it proudly. I smile and laugh in the hospital because I CAN. I like to think I'm assuring people with my smile, my body language. "Everything is going to be alright." And it will be. Everything will be alright in the end. Everything will end and really- does it even matter? Ugh. I'm getting very philosophical. Yeah that's what I get for being a nerd in school. :P

 

But I just wanted to tell you, it’s okay. And it’s okay to cry about having a brace too. I remember the first time we took Pablo home and I put him on, I told my mom I looked like a freak.  I thought I did. BUT I DIDN’T. No one does. I just want everyone to know if you ever need someone who it may be easier to share with because you don’t know me personally (but someone who still understands), I am here. Or if you just wanna talk. Or if there’s something else. My email’s always over in my bio. Feel free to use it. I love friends!

 

Fly on for now,

 

Ann Marie *>*

 

P.S. Sorry this is super long! I just thought you guys deserved a lot for sticking with me and ma blog through our first few months of high school! Because you guys deserve the best of me! J ILY